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happy birthday! [Friday
April 11th, 2008 at 8:55pm]
[ mood | blah ]

             HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JULES! :D

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Random declaration. [Tuesday
March 25th, 2008 at 11:47pm]
[ mood | excited ]

            I LOVE LIZ! :D <3 :D <3 :D

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I PROMISE [Saturday
February 9th, 2008 at 8:45pm]
[ mood | confused ]


- to be a best friend for anyone and everyone who wants or needs me
- to always tell the truth
- to love everyone equally, if not in the same ways
- to take time for myself
- to try my hardest
- to realize I am human and thus, I am not perfect, and will not stick to all of these all the time
- to love myself
- to have fun
- to keep my cool more often
- to accept the past and realize I'm not the same person, I have changed and I can continue to change
- to never give up
- to go after my dreams
- to realize and accept not everyone is of the same moral intergrity and to learn to watch my own back
- to always be willing to try new things
- to be open to life
- to keep my promises
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WOOT! [Sunday
December 2nd, 2007 at 3:28pm]
Your results:
You are Green Lantern
Green Lantern
Wonder Woman
The Flash
Iron Man
Hot-headed. You have strong
will power and a good imagination.
Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz
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I am bad to the bone... [Saturday
December 1st, 2007 at 1:59pm]
Not because I lifted this meme from Kate, *hugs duh-linkkk* but because I should TOTALLY be finishing up my GSA story and sending it to Cassi and Courtney because they agreed to beta it! >.< Well, a happy writer IS a productive writer soo...

1) Make a list of 15 Musicians/Actors/Athletes/whoever, that you find attractive.
2) Order them from 1 to 15, 1 being the hottest to you.
3) Find a picture of each
4) Post the pictures from 15 to 1, explaining why you find that person hot.

DISCLAIMER: I will most likely lose ALL SANITY and COHERENCY around about...*thinks* number 13 or so so do not expect good explainations. I mean, really, I will most likely just start drooling and hitting keys. >.<

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You know you want to take it... [Thursday
October 4th, 2007 at 7:33pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

   So why resist? :-*

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Just read [Saturday
September 22nd, 2007 at 2:40pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

         I was reading V for Vendetta quotes, totally am going to re-rent that now, but I came across this and thought, OMG this needs posted for those who haven't seen the movie. 

Closing Credits Music Voiceover - Male: Concerning non-violence: It is criminal to teach man not to defend himself when he is the constant victim of brutal attacks.
Closing Credits Music Voiceover - Female: Sex and Race, because they are easy, visible differences, have been the primary ways of organising human beings into superior and inferior groups and into the cheap labour on which this system still depends. We are talking about a society in which there will be no roles other than those chosen, or those earned. We are really talking about Humanism. 


          Even now, in the most insignifigant ways, this remain to be true. Example, tan skin is considered prettier than pale. Seems rather stupid and yet it's true.

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*is scowling* [Thursday
September 20th, 2007 at 8:33pm]
[ mood | devious ]


              Meanwhile, I am the worst flirt in history. No matter what I know on it, it's the application of the process that makes me horrid. Is it b/c the object on which I am attempting to persuade into my favor is closer to home then last time? Is it b/c if I fail, I have much to lose and therefore I've become passive-agressive in my subconcious in order to prevent the devastating fall? *sigh* I need to get over it, b/c it's a far worse risk to not risk than to jump in, feet first. I WOULD NOT LOSE IF I JUST TRIED HARDER!

              But IN GOOD NEWS, I UNDERSTAND DIAMENSIONAL ANALYSIS! :D It only took me three days! :D Course, I didn't really TRY TIL TODAY. But still...

              Now, to take this back to depressing...

              I am going to buy a taser...or just bring my bat to school. After school, James and Briton ganged up on me and invade my personal space 27 times in under 5 minutes, a new record, I think. I mean, that sounds hypocritical b/c I don't get all POed when Christian or David or Philip or one of my other guy friends pokes/tickles me but it's different when they do it. They are teasing, and they don't go too far with it. They don't overdo it. They cut it out when I ask them to and mean it. The aforementioned idiots do not, and besides BRITON HAS A GIRLFRIEND! HE DOESN'T NEED TO BE HUGGING ME! I MEAN FOR GOSH SAKE! That's not right. I mean, once again, I sound hypocritical, but it's not like hugging David, who is dating Torri, I mean, with David, he's a friend only. With Briton, I'm not so sure that friends only thing is on both sides if you catch my drift and I don't want to go pissing off girls that I have classes with and are much bigger than little ol' me. If there was any reason to have a b/f, it would be just b/c I need someone to protect me since Kacy is only avaliable at certain times... 

               But, yeah. It stinks. Although, the songs that I've looked up on Christian's recommendations are making it slightly better. :D
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*squees over secret joyness* [Thursday
September 13th, 2007 at 6:52pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

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Career meme [Wednesday
September 12th, 2007 at 10:17pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Art / Music Therapist *Loves*


Motivational Speaker *HAHA*

Sport Psychology Consultant *What's that?*

Genetic Counselor *Again, what's that?*


Special Effects Technician *ROCKING!*

Dietitian *Eh, no.*


Sign Maker *O.o*

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So... [Tuesday
September 11th, 2007 at 10:27pm]
[ mood | devious ]

I need a hug. But not like, friend hug. Well yes friend hug, but with more to it. Anyone with boobs is immediately not allowed to hug me. I don't need that kind of hug. I don't care how small they are either. No.

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*throws up* [Thursday
August 30th, 2007 at 7:04pm]
[ mood | morose ]


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Gah! CONCIOUS! SHUT. IT. UP. [Tuesday
August 28th, 2007 at 9:12am]
[ mood | :( ]

               Today was better. I didn't get lost. I saw less people but the ones I did see I saw for longer. I went off campus for lunch which was like...scary. I mean, WHOA people must hate the lunch hour in Dairy Queen, Pizza Place, Doppio's, 7/11 and Rax. It's packed like heck. Hehe, PHS doesn't have it though! *sticks out tongue at them* Course we lose it next year. :(

               Well I went to Mr. Blanc who is the counselor for sophomores and I am getting bumped up to Honor's in science which is great but makes me feel bad, like I'm dissing them by going to a harder class. >.> I know that's stupid but it's how I feel. 

               Liz is not online. This saddens me. Mask is not either. Neville wants me to write but I feel kinda crumby and I need to shower. I will stop this post here so I can do that.

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*sticks out tongue* [Saturday
August 25th, 2007 at 8:41pm]
[ mood | I need a stress ball ]

    Went through my computer. I lost everything. Except the avatars Liz sent me. Everything else is GONE. I'm trying to tell myself that this should be used as a cleansing experience and a fresh start, it's working except for when I think that I'm going ot have to re-load AIM, iTunes and my entire iTunes library, Photoshop, and Paintshop. ON DIALUP! *headdesk* So...don't worry if I'm not on AIM for a long time. *flails* AIM is the FIRST thing I'm loading as soon as mom fixes my internet connection. Gosh, I can't wait to get off this computer and back on mine.
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Pointless... [Saturday
August 25th, 2007 at 5:20pm]
[ mood | listless ]

You are most like:

You are Yellow

The clouds part and the smell of daffodils and daisies fill the air when you are around. Your sunny disposition cheers most, and makes others (the jealous and bitter ones) wish you'd never gotten out of bed.


Take this quiz: Which Crayola Box of 8 Color Are You?

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I don't think I ever find my own memes, I always get them from others... [Tuesday
August 21st, 2007 at 1:32pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Pick your birth month.
Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.
Tag 5 people from your friends list.


Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

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Really...I'd waltz with him... [Monday
August 20th, 2007 at 6:02pm]
[ mood | listless ]

              Finished GoF.  :D Now I REALLY want to go to Georgia!!! Favorite actors that happen to play my favorite characters...together...in one place....I COULDN'T DREAM OF SOMETHING BETTER! >.O


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Wow, they really don't think... [Sunday
August 19th, 2007 at 9:41pm]

               Well my mom finally explained why so many of my peers do stupid things. I mean, I suspected this, but hearing it from someone else that has been there is just...it makes it all concrete in a way. 

              Why do they drink, experiment with drugs, have sex, etc? B/C of the thrill of it. They know if they get caught they are in BIG SHIT. To me, this makes like NO SENSE, most likely b/c I do things b/c I want to, not for "thrills". I mean, I HAVE done things that made me excited b/c I knew I shouldn't be doing it, but that's b/c I had an original and sincere desire to do it, I wasn't just being some rebellious teen drinking b/c I was told not to. (I haven't drunk by the way, that was just an example and nothing more.) Really though, that makes like NO sense to me. Maybe someday I will be faced with something that will make me understand. But like, now is not that time.

             I watched GoF, and I want to waltz with Neville. He's awesome. Liz ships Andy/George but I still love Neville bestest. :D I can't just push him away. And I've tried hard to do it. But I can't. It breaks my heart. >.o

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*slightly more calm* [Sunday
August 19th, 2007 at 6:34am]
[ mood | so sick of myself ]

              This is why I have friends in RL, to remind me of my good points and why I'm a good-ish person.

               Does anyone out there find my entries amusing or are they, as I have reason to assume, just generally not read? Or are they read and no one comments? 


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Ah, how my ears bleed...in theory [Sunday
August 19th, 2007 at 6:15am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

                So, yeah, I don't want to sleep...DON'T JUDGE ME! :-P I like yelling that. It really makes people stop and shut up. Unless they're like me. Then they just rise above the challenge. I know no limits, I really don't. Especially when fighting/arguing. I HAVE TO BE RIGHT AND WIN! I DO NOT LOSE! It's just not in me to lose. If I do, I get severly annoyed. I love that about myself as horrible as it is. It's just so damn amusing to me when I think about it. Anywho...

              B/C I like to think I have a sense of humor, I started playing LeAnn Rimes's "Leaving's Not Leaving" when Liz signed off AIM. Hahahahahahahahahaha! Yesh, country, which I normally DETEST TO THE EXTREME! I really should do this more often, it's highly amusing to me. 

             I really do love my icons too much. I think that's why I'm posting so freaking much. Or, b/c I like to post and talk and talk about what I'm thinking. I think there's something in that last sentence. Maybe it's b/c I'm using as much of my brain as I can before I start the numbing process for school. Yes, I KNOW numbing my brain is HORRID AND INEXCUSABLE but I CAN NOT TAKE LIFE if I DON'T. I seriously can't. I am quite serious to a degree when I thing if I didn't numb myself down a little I would become mentally unstable. *thinks back to being suicidal* Which is somewhere I DO NOT EVER want to go again! I am still not that comfortable talking about it or why I was like that, I don't like how it tends to make people look at me after I say that I almost killed myself. They just, GAH! STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT! I USED PAST TENSE PEOPLE! <------ I'D LOVE TO YELL THAT AT THEM! But I don't think I've told enough people to be allowed. And most of the ones I told I don't think remember or took me seriously; which in itself makes me want to stab a pillow. 

            *SIGH* I really feel like hating something for some balance in my life. I don't think I hate anything and it's starting to throw me off. WILL SOMEONE PLEASE PISS ME OFF?! Goddamn it all the fucking hell! :X *feels better posting that*

              I should stop swearing. I really should, but it's like my only outlease for all my anger. And I have more anger than I should. I wonder if that's b/c I've been stuck with only my thoughts all summer or what? *kicks* Swearing is the signs of a weak mind trying to express itself. I really do think I have a weak mind. I don't get why people say I'm smart. Sure, I'm smarter than they are but that's not saying much considering the people I live around. >.< GAH! GAH! GAH! GAH! *growls* If I could cut my anger in 1/2 I'd be SO much happier. 

              I want to meet an intelligent boy. Does such a thing exist? Really? Does it?  


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